Sometimes, I am such a fucking pain in the ass. I almost always speak in terms of what I dislike. I talk about the things that aren't going well in my life, and so often leave out the good parts. I shoot down simple suggestions like they're beyond absurd when I get into one of my moods. I've heard it from at least 4 different people in the past week. I'm such an unbelievable cynic; even a pessimist.
I can't keep on like this. I have plenty of things to be happy about in my life. Like... The Shins (currently playing, first thing that came to mind). I have amazing music, and plenty of new stuff to listen to, overall. I have people and a family that love me unconditionally. I made it into the U in the Cities, into the program I want. My life really isn't bad. Granted I don't need to be a mindless optimist, but...
I need to be better at this. I need to try harder.
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You are so bodacious, Merry Bun Bun. I will take your pessimism and love you anyway, but I'm glad you can still recognize all the awesome things you have going for you. Summer is coming soon. Look at the sun and believe it!
ReplyDeleteI miss you! and...
I love you so much! :D
Have a fabulous night!
It is very hard to take filters off of your eyes when they have been there for so long. I know the cynical filter is cemented to my face. The fact that you can stop and realize that life is good and that you need to see things differently means you are heading in the right direction. You can do it, I know you can.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you are trying to better your own situation. We define our own reality. So hopefully you can make yours as good as you think it should be.
ReplyDeleteYou've only got one life (probably). Why be sad?
ReplyDeleteIt might be hard, but I think you can do it. You'll be realistically optimistic someday. Maybe even not too far from now if you really try =)
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